The Rage Topic

#1801

yeah man, i’ve been sitting on my ass for months, even though i REALLY want to get out there, reconnect with friends, get my life back

…and i’m still sitting here… i’m REALLY glad i have such a patient and understanding mother, a few friends that have never given up on me, and that i live in a country with a decent health care system (if those fat greedy bastards dont succeed in breaking it down even more…)

“a few friends that have never given up on me” --> possibly the most important thing to get you out of depression (or to even survive it)
really, without people who have cared for me and who didn’t blame me for being absent or evasive or for complaining, i might not have been here today

getting angry at someone for feeling bad is an extremely asshole thing to do, unless you’re autistic or something

#1802

Before this derails the thread even more; I said vent. I never said anything about getting angry at people about it. It’s a delicate issue. I haven’t the heart to say that to someone’s face unless it carried on for longer than it should have, even then I wouldn’t get angry I’d be supportive as possibly can be because I haven’t the heart to get angry at them. I hate seeing my fellow man or woman in pain.

Fact of the matter is, it’s what I believe. I’ve pulled myself from that hole more times than I can count WITH and WITH OUT the help of loved ones. I’ve been depressed. I’ve thought of taking my own life at one point, at which point I said to myself: “Fuck that, I have more to live for.”

I may or may not have hit rock bottom then, I may or may not understand that feeling. But over all, things will get better as life goes on, but it’s up to you to make them better when you’re ready, otherwise it’s not going to change.

If someone wants to share some insights, please do. It’d be an interesting discussion to say the least.

#1803

https://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com.ar/2013/05/depression-part-two.html

#1804

You know, I am beginning to hate TF2, its community has gone to shit ever sense it went free to play, and for many it has become a game of hats and cash more then a game for fun. I hate reality as it shows me that even the best games become shit with age do to the game either becoming shit or the community. I would rage harder, but really trying NOT to shoot my self right now.

#1805

The Xbox 360 version is probably the only “pure” version of TF2 left…

#1806

Well you have two options:

  1. https://www.fortress-forever.com/wiki/?title=Downloads Download the latest version and play it. The community’s active at around 5 or so Eastern, and active well into the night, even during week days. It usually peaks around 8 or so PM. FF’s got a real learning curve, but it’s fun to play once you get somewhat good at it. If you’ve played TFC before and remember the controls, it should be a natural substitute.

  2. Look for different (and right) servers.

#1807

do to a problem caused by tf2 going free to play, the server browser for me only shows 10 servers, so option one is the only option. (Ever sense it went free to play, the server browser has been messed up)

#1808

the server browser isn’t messed up to me so I don’t think its a problem related to it being (or going) Free 2 Play

#1809

well it has been messed up for me ever sense it went free to play. That was a while ago, this could be in most part because I have a low end internet connection (just fast enough to play on most servers with out lag)

#1810

I have been trying, lord knows I’m been trying with all my skill. But I can’t do it. I just can’t.

THAT FUCKING ELEVATOR FIGHT IN REVENGEANCE IS

FUCKING

[b]BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUULLSHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEET

I FUCKING HATE FUCKING MASTIFFS FUCK FUCK FUCK[/b]

#1811

Yeah, that was a tough ass fight. I was glad I was using a controller for that.

#1812

:awesome:

:hmph:

:facepalm:

#1813

You could try ignoring the hat market and just playing the damn game. Nobody’s forcing you to buy hats.

#1814

just play counter-strike, nobody’s interested in hats in that game

#1815

^true

Australia is now at the time of year where I’ve got heat rash on my hands by 9AM. Fuck.

#1816

Makes me miss the days when TFC had an active community. I wish that game were still alive. Those were the days!

#1817

Re-checkin’ my BALKC EMSA translations again, glad to be able to pick up mistakes here and there and rewrite some awkward sentences. I wish there could be an easter egg of a Spanish-English dictionary somewhere, or a computer with Google translate on the screen, as a reference to all the people who said it was translated with Google… If only it was as easy as that, mang!

#1818

Why in god’s green earth do you feel the need to turn up your sound at 8 AM in the fucking morning, I aught’a shoot you.

I hear a constant thud from speakers in the next room due to an individual playing Skyrim on their machine.

#1819

It’s not unusual to sleep from 22:00 to 06:00. In fact, I think it sounds pretty normal.

I’m sorry, but I thought waking up at a reasonable time and waiting a solid two hours to play Skyrim [with the volume up] was particularly courteous of me.

#1820

8 am, your complaining about sound at 8am… man you must be an idiot.

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