hahaha I was so expecting that, a while ago they posted about a fish who had teeth like Humans, and they called it a human fish
So what youāre saying is that is not a photoshop?
no, the fish species is called āPacuā, google does help sometimes
Iāve been battling with a very serious bout of depression for about a month now. I find it difficult to even leave my room or see anyone. I donāt want to talk to anyone I know about it, and Iām only now acknowledging that thereās something wrong when I continually decide to just fuck the day and barricade myself within my room.
Iām not really sure what to do. I donāt see a future for myself, nor do I see any worth I hold. I am disgusted with myself daily and lack the willpower to change, and for that I am also disgusted.
Lately, within the past week or so, Iāve been thinking about ending it all. I just donāt see the point in delaying death when it will happen anyway. I know itās not healthy, but thatās what Iāve been thinking about.
I donāt know why Iām telling you guys this. Itās probably because I also feel ashamed I am thinking this way and thus donāt want to reach out to anyone I know. And since itās doubtful Iāll never see you guys IRL I really have not a care in the world what yāall think of me.
I know this saying may seemed cliched, but āending it allā is just a permanent solution for a temporary problem. Whatever things that bring you down can be solved - it will take time and effort but thereās always a solution in the end.
Try to speak out loud about your problem with someone IRL. I know it may be hard, almost impossible, but talking about it WILL help you see things in a different light. Donāt give up.
Speaking from personal experience fwiw, remember that depression is an illness that effects shitloads of people from all walks of life. try to see a doctor if you can, the thing about drugs is they work.
Lol, last time I bought a game, leave alone one made by EA. Why should anyone really give a fuck.
And tbh, let EA be. Cause if it goes boom, the ensuing shit storm will be far worse.
Iāve been there before. It really fucking sucks. But in the end, there are two ways you can handle it. You could give up. Or you could refuse to.
But of course, even refusing to give in wonāt get rid of the problem. Youāll still be depressed. Youāll go up for a bit, then come back down. What you really need to do is find the root of the problem. Now, Iām not you, I donāt know your situation, so I canāt tell you what it is thatās gotten you depressed. So, I guess what you need is to sit down, and take a look at your life from a detached standpoint. List all the Pros and Cons, and figure out what it is thatās been bothering you so much. If itās mostly Pros, well, thatāll be reassuring. If itās mostly cons, youāre not being honest with yourself.
For me, the main root was that I was being a coward. I liked a girl, a lot, but had never been able to tell her. Eventually, I grew a pair, and the next time I saw her, I took her aside and told her.
Gonna be completely honest, it was the hardest thing Iāve ever done, and I got rejected for my trouble. But I felt better after it. So much of the self-loathing I had for myself justā¦ melted away, and I havenāt had a down day since.
You could also try working out if you donāt already, apparently a lot of guys get depressed from having low testosterone levels. Itās also a pretty big boost to self-esteem, even if youāre no good at it (Like me). Having a pulse feels pretty good, too.
Anyway, hang in there. Despite how youāre feeling, you do matter, and these forums wouldnāt be the same without you.
^I think Jeff had given you a good encouragement Winged, and I agree with him, find the roots of your problems hopefully youāll understand yourself much better
Iām sorry Winged. How old are you again? What stage of life are you in now? (school, college, university, work, etc).
and Iād like to add one thing, ending your own life is not really an end to your suffering, youāll STILL lose because youāll cease to exist <-- I donāt know how to really clarify this point, and youāll cause pain and suffering your family and friends because of that, I do hope you get out your depression and get over those problems, and keep the though of suicide away from your head
I sure hope he isnāt trying to set up an April Fools jokeā¦
depression sucks, especially when itās caused by shit thatās impossible to change
if itās caused by shit that can be changed, change it first and then see where youāre at
if not, well, get some IRL help or deal with it
easy words, i havent learned to deal with it yet myself
Let me say this now. Iāve already lost two good friends to suicide, one to drug abuse, the other to depression. Itās not an option - your pain my cease, but your friends and families troubles will just begin at that point. Iād known both of these guys for years, and I was really close with the both of them. I did not know about their problems and to this day I wish I could have done more for them in their time of need, but shit just happened. The point Iām trying to make here, is that itās a bad way to go out. It causes pain to the other people around you, and frankly, no offense, but itās a pussy way out.
Your best bet to start dealing with the problem would be to just talk to someone, whether it be random people on a forum, on an IM to an internet friend, or IRL. IRLās best because they can pick your ass out of the bed even though you donāt feel like it, and force you to do the things you need to do even though you donāt have the drive to. So long as you can get the pain out of the way, and you start feeling better, who cares about the medium. Once you start getting the āfuck itā feeling out of the way, deal with the rout of the problem.
Iāve never had a serious bout of depression since my teenage years, but thatās mostly because I have a good circle of friends and a high self-esteem. I donāt know your situation, or anything of that sort, but suicide is not an option. It never is. Youāll cease to exist and this will cause a ripple effect among your circle causing doom and gloom abroad.
Beyond that, Iāll share some of my own personal experience if it makes you feel any better; The past year for me has been a rough one for me too. I broke up with my girlfriend early last year, I was (and prolly still am) deeply in love with her, and the feelings for her may have subsided to a certain extent, but I still care about her and these feelings donāt go away no matter how much I try to bury them, and it annoys the living shit out of me. Iāve tried to move on, and I canāt for some inexplicable reason I canāt fathom. Additionally, my best friend died last year also due to a drug overdose and less than a month ago the best friend I chose to talk to on a regular basis bit the dust himself. The more I think about it, the more it pisses me off. I wish I couldāve done more for them. But you get the idea.
TL;DR: Iām not trying to be doom and gloom here, and Iām trying to make a point with this; it WILL drag you down if you let it, you just need to look up and just say āfuck youā to the problem. If you need to find the energy you need, work out, watch porn and fap (yes I just said that), both help you get the energy that you need to get going. Once you do that, do something you enjoy to pick yourself up. Then, once you feel comfortable again, find the rout of the problem and kill it - figuratively. Itās going to be a long, tedious recovery, and I wish you all the luck in the world Winged. If it makes you feel any better, this is proof that, yes most of us do care about a random person we know nothing about.
I just realized that April foolās a week awayā¦
Man, Iām 23 and Iām still dealing with my parentsā divorce 20 years ago.
That trauma has made me miss a large part of my life. Iāve missed opportunities for friendship, love, fun, because of isolation and low self-esteem. Iāve become estranged from good friends and family, fucked up a relationship.
Iāve continually set myself aside because I feel personally responsible for other peopleās happiness, especially my fatherās and my (ex) girlfriendās, and I feel as though itās my fault when theyāre unhappy.
The worst part is that intellectually, I know that itās all bullshit and that itās all in my head, but I donāt believe it. Itās completely irrational, like a phobia.
Iāve been very depressed for a year and a half, and itās not the first time, and it feels like thereās no way out. Iāve thought of suicide, but as Chicken says, the best reason not to do it is the pain it causes to others. I just have to keep trying every day to do something, anything constructive.
Iām nearing the end of my fourth year in college.
And no, this isnāt a set-up for April foolās, which I only just now realized is coming up quickā¦kind of lost track of time.
But thanks for the kind words and support, guys. Maybe I should start going to the gym more. I cut my hair really short yesterday because I just needed a change; maybe some people will notice/will think Iām secretly cool or something.
well cutting your hair āgetting a new lookā is a good start
hey winged, I donāt really know you and I donāt think you should kill yourself
life is cool most of the time
That is what I thought. Still in school. My life got exponentially better once I was completely out of school. Working for money, owning my own stuff, and being able to choose where my life goes, has made me a much happier person (just imagine how angry I was in high school).
Things can get better.
On a similar but much less severe note, Iāve been under a ridiculous amount of stress and pressure recently and I think Iām on the verge of (hyperbolicly) going crazy.
I really need to be able to just relax and stop worrying so much about everything. Does anyone know of any good ways of dealing with stress?
(And please donāt suggest drugs.)