Let us bitterly contemplate our failures

#41

I know I am a bit hard on myself but at least I dont dwell on it. I only think about it once in a while. You do what you can, you try to learn from your mistakes and in the end hope your kids still love you. Right now, they all still love me and want to be around me. So I think I am ok. :slight_smile:

I think the only pisser we both disagree on is that he said that because I grounded him so much during highschool, (And always it was because I kept finding pot in his room) he was not able to develop his social skills and that is the reason why he is a social introvert. :eyesrolling:

IRL, I too am more of an introvert but I certainly dont blame my parents for it. Heck, I only have 4 friends I ever hang out with, and even then it is only to get shnockered and watch them make fools of themselves.

#42

I don’t know. It was dark, and I was trying to get into whatever hole I could find. Then I just keep going, and going. She told me to stop, I think. But I sorta blocked out all noise and went as fast as I could. Then she broke up with me the next day.

#43

You penetrated her ass (without lube, as far as your story goes) and went as fast as you could, even as she begged you to stop?

Well, there is a word for this.

You are lucky you haven’t killed her in the process. But she could still have brought you into prison for this.

Geez. You better try and keep it together next time you have sex with a girl. You can’t just get lost in your emotions while having sex. There is another human being with you in such a situation who could get hurt if you grow too wild. What’s a lover that only acts according to his own desires?

#44

oh wow

#45

Fuck that, my family hangs together like some really awesome molten mozerella, real tight and stuff, yet my parents never read to me every night. I grabbed my own books/comics and started reading them, even if I couldn’t, I pretended.

Also, I never intend to get kids myself. If I do get one, it’ll be by accident (though i’ll probably care for it anyway, but still). Mainly because I hate kids, they’re cruel, stupid, drooling little monsters, but also because I don’t want my offspring to grow up in a world that’s slowly dying (and I’m not talking about the planet).

So I’m free of fucking my life up as much as I want to, and I’ll never feel as bad as Catz about screwing up the life of my kid’s as well.

#46

I was never read to, but I started reading around the age of 3 or 4. And I got good at it very fast. So being read to doesn’t necessarily have to do with that.

#47

I’m sorry. Can you please forgive me?

#48

lol

#49

Danson got troll’d tbh.

#50

#51

I’ve liked a girl for about 9 years off and on. I’ve screwed up being with her 4 times now and after giving it a little bit of a break I’ve been talking to her again only to find out she’s interested in someone else. To make it worse I know she isn’t “the one” for me, she’s flighty, irresponsible, and can be a bit immature. The issue is I’ve yet to find someone better to go after in a school of over 2000 people.

#52

I know where you’re coming from with that. Had a crush on the most gorgeous girl I’ve met in my life, who happened to be my best friend’s cousin (1 year younger than me, don’t get any crazy assumptions), and I liked her for about 5 years. At one point she liked me back then suddenly decided she didn’t when I got the balls to ask her out.

But this was all at the beginning of high school.

#53

I’m fucking perfect.

No really.

This thread is all kinds of depressing. Catz’s post made me crack open a tub of Ben and Jerry’s.

#54

I liked one of my best friends for over a year or so, and finally told her after her and her boyfriend broke up. We ended up hanging out a lot, had sex a couple times (don’t get the wrong impression, I had every intention of going out with her), and then she bailed on me and is now going out with some other guy.

I’ve been cheated on around twelve times, and have had only nine girlfriends.

Oh, and your parents telling you that you’re a mistake is a great self-esteem boost.

#55

ROFL all over this page. Between the accidental butty sex (“gawd! Stop CRYINgdamit!”) and the guy offering some judgement over it, my post depressing everyone, and CTID about that ‘accident’ thing; two of my three kids were ‘accidents’. So it is the ‘on purpose’ one that feels left out. Just embrace your special-ness. :wink:

I think I am feeling rather happy now. :chuckle:

#56

Thanks catz, I guess…

Also, I’ve been “gifted” with bipolar disorder where I can go from being extremely happy to extremely depressed in a split second with nothing happening. Alcoholism also runs in my family, which is my reason for staying the hell away from it, and suicide is a fairly common occurance in my family.

I also cut my wrists for 2 years, but I managed to quit that.

My only real successes are that I am a damn good listener to my friends’ problems, yet like Waffle said, am unable to follow my own advice, which doesn’t help the depression; and that I don’t drink, smoke, or do drugs.

#57

Pretty sure, considering I live in teh USA.

Though my dad is a total cunt, so…

#58

Are you me?

#59

Low self-confidence in anything big I attempt to finish, I regularly fuck myself over for no reason that I understand, I have a fear of large groups of people (I guess you could call it hate), and I often act like a cunt even though I know what the right thing is.

I’ll elaborate on the last one, sometimes when people ask me a question I answer with “I dunno” even though I obviously know the answer, I’ll act like an immature douche for no reason, and I’ll often just act differently than the person I am inside.

Not to mention I am also failing my education even though I could be on top of my grades with the slightest effort, and I also have family issues that aren’t that far from sassy’s level of family issues. My sister is also going into drugs and I don’t want to say anything nor tell anyone.

#60

I look at all of this and I realize that we are all unique in our fecked-up-edness. So much so that it makes us each unique and interesting to know.

Yes. Interesting to know. In all our flaws and sadness, we are who we are as a result of what we allow into our universe as well as what was forced into our universe.

ah, the cruxed is how to work it to positive. THAT my friends is how you become a better person.

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