“Song of Awakening”
Considering all that has transpired in my life and in existence,
Considering all that has taken place here, on our own planet, on Earth,
I have come to the conclusion that we are nothing,
Yet we are also something, something indescribable.
Man is bound in an existence which he believes he knows,
Yet in reality, he does not know,
He merely assigns labels of fact and truth to everything,
And instructs others to commit these labels to memory,
As if they hold anything of true value.
I had once held this façade as one would hold a newborn,
I had believed in and regurgitated what I believed was knowledge,
I sunk myself, drowned in this information, truly believing,
Believing that I was learning.
All the world, I thought, was being unraveled,
It was all being made clear to my ignorant mind,
My name would be up there with that of Newton, maybe Einstein, even,
No one would dare question my logic and judgment,
One giant label constricting my mind,
I loved it!
Then the question appeared, like lightning on a night you were hoping to get some well deserved rest,
Why do these things happen, why do these thing act the way they do?
How do they truly function?
What, or whom, do they function for?
Are we an imaginary world in the mind of a dreaming God,
Asleep when he is awake and awake when he is asleep?
I could feel the label failing, the adhesive waning,
I clung to it like a kid to a Wal-Mart smiley sticker,
Awarded to each young mind, shopping with their parents, feeling like grown-ups,
So that they may convince their guardians to allow them to shop there further,
I didn’t want to leave this world I knew,
Or thought I knew.
All my understanding I would feel fading away,
Like mascara in a May shower,
Haunting your face with a decrepit appearance,
An appearance quite the opposite of what such a device was meant for,
It was a form forgotten to my eyes, greatly foreign in its shape and design.
I felt I no longer understood the world, as if all I had learned was for nothing,
And something more haunting, yearning, had taken its place,
It shook every fabric of my being, my mind, becoming me.
Every face that I thought I knew was that of a Chinaman,
Or like that of an ancient Egyptian, working on the pyramids that I took for granted,
An old war torn Indian, smiling, offering me his hand, as if congratulating me on my numerous kills,
Baring faces not of my time or place.
I attempted to block myself from these visages,
I didn’t want to see what reality really was,
The very thought of something being other than what I was taught,
Or differing from conclusions brought on by great Scientists of every area known to man,
It scared me to no end, thinking that I truly knew nothing.
I attempted to rewrap the label, to tape it, staple it into place,
But the damage had already been done,
What had been seen could not be unseen,
And I am left with the image of what truly is,
Not what we believe it is.
The label would not stay,
It was a mere child’s playpen, holding back the young brute,
Until he grew large enough, strong enough to break those walls of varying color,
To cast away his cage, whether by an accident of his newfound strength,
Or eventually through his father, believing he had suffered enough.
I had broken the cage, unaware of my strength, of what I bore,
The whole world was mine to roam, to discover, to play with,
No longer tied to that simple existence,
Consisting of those lettered blocks and multi-colored walls baring joyful animals of many varieties.
It all scared me, I didn’t want to leave the world that I was accustom,
All of it seemed blasphemous, strange and wrong,
I wanted none of it,
Calling upon a spirit of greater repute than my own,
I begged for guidance, yet there was none,
The door had already been made apparent,
And it couldn’t be any more obvious.
It was time for me to leave this building that I had called home,
Four walls, that I had come to realize, were trapping me,
Constricting my thinking, blocking the truth,
I remember that first step into the truth, and it was glorious,
Something that I will never forget, something that will guide my actions for years to come,
It did not kill me, as my previous thoughts would have you believe,
It was different, but welcoming; a breath of fresh air after one’s sentence is through,
Feeling every molecule of oxygen fill your lungs, not wanting to let it go,
Then you release and let out a warm smile, welcoming the future.
I shook hands with the Chinamen, the Egyptians and Indian,
They were all my friends, possessing a new uniqueness, a curiosity of sorts,
True knowledge could now be found, I know how the world works and it is glorious,
Everything is great, and everything is average,
Baring the power of a God and the stench of a vagrant,
All is unique in many ways, a treasure to be held dear, and to cast away into the bin.
I looked back to the door that once bore me, held me close,
I gave it a sincere smile and a wave, for I would never occupy those walls again,
I could never occupy those walls again,
Because once you see, you can’t go back,
You can’t fix the glass once it has been shattered,
You can only take a step outside and breathe the fresh air,
Awakening your lungs to something different, filling.
This was my story, one that you may not understand,
For what has opened my eyes,
What was I scared of, what was I afraid to bare?
What may be clear to me may seem foreign to you,
Enlightenment is different for all of us,
For we all see differently, yet ultimately, we all see the same.